Over the last couple of weeks I’ve canned corn relish and made blackberry jam from hand picked blackberries. I’ve created balanced homemade meals and avoided fast food (pretty much), started to organize my closets (You didn’t seriously think I got that done yet did you?), started to reduce my pantry and freezer stock, cancelled online daily deal subscriptions, avoided flyers and searching for airmiles deals, as well as sifting through paperwork, art supplies and filling donation boxes. As I finished up washing yet another stack of handwashed pots and pans generated from apples studel made with apples from my own tree I was struck with the strength of my feelings. I’m tired!!!! There was a reason I ate out, ignored the filing and did not hand make my own shampoo and deodorant (and trust me folks, crystals do nothing to reduce the stink even if you think your aura is cleaner. I’m just saying.)
Today my joints are swollen, my face is puffy and I can’t follow the plot line of America’s Next Top Model. In other words it is time to rest, and let the world take care of itself. Today I will ignore the dog toys, eat ifits (if it is in the fridge you can have it) and just enjoy my home. We work so hard to create an environment for everyone but ourselves. It is hard to realize that I have limitations but there is wisdom in knowing yourself, testing the boundaries and accepting when you have gone as far as you can. Today is the day to let my home look after me rather than the other way around. Today I will enjoy snippets of summer that still exist in my garden. Today I will just be and be content.